Well its been a couple of weeks since I updated my blog, and I can't put it off any longer. I have effectively stayed the same for 2 weeks - I lost 1lb and gained it back the next week.
August was always going to be tricky, as I seem to have had a lot of events. I was at my pals sons christening 2 Saturdays ago, I was at my Boss's wedding on Saturday there and I am going to a funeral tomorrow - husbands aunt. I have pictures from the Christening and the wedding that I was intending to put on this blog, but I am such a techno-phobe I need my hubby's help to do all that - so these will come soon.
But most importantly, I am to be an Auntie for the very first time. My wee sister (aged 35 but will always be my wee sister) and my lovely brother in law are expecting their first baby in March 2010. They have just had the 12 week scan so I am officially allowed to blab. Hooooorrrrrraaaaaayyyyyyyyy. I've known for about 5 or 6 weeks but was sworn to secrecy.
I have really mixed emotions about this. My beautiful Mum died 4 years ago, so never lived to see a grandchild. My Mum's death led to an estrangement from my Dad for both my sister and I (too hurtful even now 4 years on to write about) so my Dad won't know he will be a Grandpa. And lastly, my brother in law is in the Army and so they live in Belgium - and I hate that distance at the best of times but especially now. I had a miscarriage 3 years ago at 11 weeks, so I have a bit of a pang over what might have been for myself and my hubby too - it's just never happened for us and I have never investigated this - yet! I am also 38 and aware that time is ticking on - but I just can't face the emotional side of starting the ball rolling with doctors & tests etc. I am such a coward really. Even typing this, I am tempted to hit the back button and erase a lot of this message, but maybe its time I was honest - even if no-one reads this blog I suppose I have "put this out there" instead of internalising like I always do.
The over-riding emotion though is joy and I can't wait to meet my new niece or nephew. I just selfishly want to put my sister in my pocket so I can be a part of it all. When it comes to family we are all each other has got to rely on - excluding our respective OH's of course.
I have pulled my WW finger out this week and am pointing and exercising, so hope to see a return on that when I get to the scales on Saturday. We'll see. I have just over 9 weeks till I go on holiday and I am really trying to focus on that for now. I have one (aged) summer dress that I still can't zip up, and even if I don't take it on holiday with me, I at least want it to fit so that it is not discarded from being packed due to a size issue.
Be excellent everyone!!
Wednesday, 26 August 2009
Thursday, 13 August 2009
Ouch!
Well I lost 1.5lbs on Saturday and was really pleased with that. Class was interesting too - we did an interactive session. My team was to take on the role of the Unsuccessful Weightwatcher. We had to discuss how things can "go wrong" for you eg not tracking, not weighing portions etc, and we had to list some reasons (excuses!) for not being successful eg TOTM, too busy to plan. We then had to describe how the unsuccessful weightwatcher might feel and just about everybody in the group chorused "Guilty" & "Depressed". Makes you think doesn't it? A half hearted approach isn't going to get you to goal, and if you are in control of your WW plan then you have no reason to feel guily or depressed.
So, all inspired I did mucho exercise at the weekend, walking, cycling, wii-ing - I did the lot. Then I cleared out a cupboard on Sunday and knackered my back lifting a heavy box bound for the tip into the car. So I have been off work for 3 days this week due to excutiating pain and the inability to sleep. Back at work today feeling stiff but with minimal pain. So far so good anyway.
Really really really annoyed that I am going to have to be careful on the exercise front for the time being though. I don't want to waste the good weather by being couped up indoors, so will just stick to some walking. Hope this doesn't have an adverse affect at WI on Saturday (which sounds like an excuse the unsuccessful ww'er from above could come up with)
Gah!
So, all inspired I did mucho exercise at the weekend, walking, cycling, wii-ing - I did the lot. Then I cleared out a cupboard on Sunday and knackered my back lifting a heavy box bound for the tip into the car. So I have been off work for 3 days this week due to excutiating pain and the inability to sleep. Back at work today feeling stiff but with minimal pain. So far so good anyway.
Really really really annoyed that I am going to have to be careful on the exercise front for the time being though. I don't want to waste the good weather by being couped up indoors, so will just stick to some walking. Hope this doesn't have an adverse affect at WI on Saturday (which sounds like an excuse the unsuccessful ww'er from above could come up with)
Gah!
Thursday, 6 August 2009
August Is Conspiring Against WW & Me
But I'm going to try really hard to get into September a few pounds lighter.
After hovering at the same weight for 2 weeks now I am really hoping that WI this Saturday will see me at least 1lb lighter. A sneaky peek this morning is showing a 0.5lb loss - not exactly stirring stuff but I'll take it.
I have been really inconsistent with my exercise regime these last couple of weeks and weightloss has paid the price. I did a huge bike ride Saturday before last and then did nothing worth mentioning for about the next week. Have got back into it now and have been out clocking up the miles on the old WW pedometer. It's amazing how much harder it expects you to work as you get lighter. I have a particular route that used to earn me 3.5 points that now only gives me 2 points.
I should also admit that I have been really struggling with my 18 points daily allowance - I've been feeling a bit deprived for the first time in a long long time. I've kicked my backside into gear over that one though by shaking up my menu choices. I need/want a wee something nice of an evening so I am just making sure I have the points to cover it by lowering points elsewhere. Gone are the days when I could have a Curly Wurly willy nilly cos I had plenty points to spare. I am 4 points a day lower now than when I started and I now have to view the choccy fix as a treat rather than a right!
Anyways, as I said August is busy busy. I have a free-ish weekend this weekend and then, in order : A Christening, Italian Car Day, A Wedding Reception, Girlie Night in Millport. ( I laugh as I type Millport. Any Scottish person reading this would snigger and think "what the bleep is there to do on Millport? For those not in the know its a tiny Scottish Island and one of my best and oldest friends lives there now. We will be entertaining ourselves in the usual fashion - gossip, food & alcohol and there will be 5 of us - so thats a lot of gossip!!)
With the exception of the Italian Car Day, all events include food and alcohol. I don't want to "just" limit the damage - I want to lose weight. I am totally up for that - are you listening WW Gods???
Be good or be careful - TTFN
After hovering at the same weight for 2 weeks now I am really hoping that WI this Saturday will see me at least 1lb lighter. A sneaky peek this morning is showing a 0.5lb loss - not exactly stirring stuff but I'll take it.
I have been really inconsistent with my exercise regime these last couple of weeks and weightloss has paid the price. I did a huge bike ride Saturday before last and then did nothing worth mentioning for about the next week. Have got back into it now and have been out clocking up the miles on the old WW pedometer. It's amazing how much harder it expects you to work as you get lighter. I have a particular route that used to earn me 3.5 points that now only gives me 2 points.
I should also admit that I have been really struggling with my 18 points daily allowance - I've been feeling a bit deprived for the first time in a long long time. I've kicked my backside into gear over that one though by shaking up my menu choices. I need/want a wee something nice of an evening so I am just making sure I have the points to cover it by lowering points elsewhere. Gone are the days when I could have a Curly Wurly willy nilly cos I had plenty points to spare. I am 4 points a day lower now than when I started and I now have to view the choccy fix as a treat rather than a right!
Anyways, as I said August is busy busy. I have a free-ish weekend this weekend and then, in order : A Christening, Italian Car Day, A Wedding Reception, Girlie Night in Millport. ( I laugh as I type Millport. Any Scottish person reading this would snigger and think "what the bleep is there to do on Millport? For those not in the know its a tiny Scottish Island and one of my best and oldest friends lives there now. We will be entertaining ourselves in the usual fashion - gossip, food & alcohol and there will be 5 of us - so thats a lot of gossip!!)
With the exception of the Italian Car Day, all events include food and alcohol. I don't want to "just" limit the damage - I want to lose weight. I am totally up for that - are you listening WW Gods???
Be good or be careful - TTFN
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